Learning that this autoimmune disorder is "statin-induced" was hard. Ron had been taking statins for years as a treatment to keep his cholesterol lowered. Ron also was immediately taken off statins as soon as his doctor first suspected that Ron may have polymyositis.
Treatment now will be involving new medications in addition to the prednisone, infusion treatments (as soon as they are insurance approved ― which his rheumatologist is fighting for), physical therapy, healthy diet, regular appointments with his rheumatologist, and perhaps acupuncture. Ron has his first appointment with "Dr. Joe" tomorrow, which is my son Matt's excellent acupuncturist. So it's a lot.
When Ron went off to Cosco yesterday to pick up his new medications, I called my dear friend Lynn and had a good cry. This has been really scary and sad for Ron and for myself. And sometimes it can be hard to not catastrophize.
But gratefully I moved in my research beyond all the scary stuff that I was reading about necrotizing myopathy to the above video testimonial by "Myositis Mike". Michael Kerin has exactly what Ron does. And his story blew me away. Powerful! And my whole mood shifted. And I shared it with Ron as soon as he got home.
And now I believe that it's an important video for each of us who cares about and loves Ron to see. Our attitudes about what is happening in our lives really matters. As part of our spiritual practices, I've learned that it is so important to remember hope and beauty and gratitude and love. And how we are all connected to each other and the web of life.
So, yes, these are not easy times. Ron is not able to walk down to the river with Shira and me now. He won't be able to travel to Victoria with me next month to see our Canadian family and celebrate my son Kevin's 40th birthday. There are losses and things to grieve.
AND there is so much to be grateful for. Such as a treatment plan and visions of progress and a positive outcome. There is also this beautiful day. And being surrounded by loving family and friends. And healthcare (however much I abhor our healthcare system that fails to insure millions). But Ron does have healthcare and he has excellent providers who are rallying and supporting him in every way possible. And there are stories like "Myositis Mike's" that fill us with hope. Most recently, we have also just learned that Ron's CK enzyme levels have dropped from a high of 17,000 when he was first hospitalized to 7,000. And on and on. Good things are happening.
In the middle of it all, there are so many blessings. So many. This includes where Ron and I both are at this time in our lives. We understand and embrace the impermanence of everything and the utter preciousness of each day. And each other. I remind Ron all the time that I'm giving him daily infusions of love. And that he is so loved by so many. Love is always the greatest medicine for hard times and all times.
Thank you for your caring, prayers, love and support. Hopefully this will help our family and friends to better understand what is happening for Ron at this time. And, all this said, these are not easy times for any of us. So bless us all! We're all related, all family, all in this together. And none of us gets out alive. So may we embrace our blessings, strengthen our capacity to hold both grief and gratitude, and care for ourselves and each other with tenderness, compassion, and love. ๐
With love,
Molly (and also known as Mom๐)
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Prayers for positive responses to treatment. And for strength to make this journey.
ReplyDeletePeg Dunlop
DeleteI hope the new meds will get you back on track for a healthy life.
ReplyDeleteWe all enjoy your beautiful photographs.
We all love you, sweet Ron <3
Xoxo
Loving you and knowing your positive thoughts and prayers are matched, all over the world.
ReplyDeleteWishing you both ease on your sacred journey.
Molly, my prayers are with you and your family. Know that my father is praying for you both. He so enjoyed your conversations. I thank you for taking the time to bring him into your lives. Know that I am praying for you each day. Take care๐
ReplyDeleteThanks for the update. You & Ron will be in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLove to you both
Ginny
Thank you for all the education and information and sharing. These times are complicated and yet simplistic. As you say, gratitude! Love! And yes, even acceptance of what is, gets us to the place of what truly matters.
ReplyDeleteThank you for being in my life.
I am sending prayers and healing energies and lots of love for you and your beautiful family.
Best wishes to Ron and Molly. This sounds really hard. May many blessings come your way.
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Our hearts are with Ron and yourself. Knowing is half the battle, doing completes the circle. Hugs to you both.
ReplyDeleteLove you guys <3
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